rant ahoy!
IDK but Im having this feeling that all my effort to accompany just pass through?
like, whenever I start a conversation in msn, you just turned silent then tosses a new topic, I know you're getting busy, that's why I ask you every now and then, but I only get a "lol or lmao" worst... is when you leave w/o saying goodbye.

I don't know now, I feel so impotent that I cant afford anything to catch your attention like we used to. Maybe its just me after all. I tried to be uptight so that I wont bore you but it seems like it just pushes you away..... sometimes I do really want to disappear just to see if you do still care about our friendship but, I wont do that because that's something selfish to do. and I trust you above all ...I love you my friend.

tl;dr
I cant help but to feel useless... it hurts.